You look within yourself for a clear answer and nothing comes up. Just the but, the what-if, the reflex to give everyone else the benefit of the doubt before yourself. Having experienced trauma is hard as it is. What nobody warns us about is the part after, when you can no longer trust your own read of anything. Sadly, that confusion often outlasts the thing that caused it. This post is about where the doubt comes from, why you learned to distrust yourself before you could even name it, and why the problem always seemed to be you.